Lời bài hát Understand
Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't
Wanted to be your man back then
And you knew I fell for you
But you just broke my heart in two
I was sad, mad
And broken on my bed
Hoping I get rid of
All the voices in my head
I was opening
A packet of an undeveloped med
When I was met
With a prescription of a bullet made of lead
And when I woke up in an hour
In a pool of my own sweat
I said
I swear to God
I'll never even try to sleep again
So instead I took my pen
And started writing evidencе
And when I started making sensе
I found that I had reached the end
Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends
You wanna bet you're just pretend
You're just a pet
Confined within the lines of writing
You're not ***
I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways
I swear I did
I said I talked to people
'Bout the problematic life I lived
They were my neighbors, razor blades
And different flavored pills I hid
Therefore I'm at surely my last straw
I'm so gassed, stuck in the past
I said that
Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't
Wanted to be your man back then
And so far
I never held you with my arms
So it's hard
To be the one you aren't
With instead filled with anxiety
Always was a part of me
Guess I'm not cut out to be
Somebody 'cause it's not me
I'm not used to all the talk
It was an introvert
That had converted feelings into writing
Used to cope with all my problems
Using notes and lots of rhyming
Used to hope for better days
Whenever nights would have me crying
I'm not lying when I say
That I would rather die than go back
To the times that I would try
To be the guy the people know
I was fighting with the demons
Hiding far beyond my eyelids
On an island
Full of violence in my head
That I could pilot
Oh the sun don't shine
The skies turn gray
I feel it coursing through my veins
I said before I'm not okay
But you don't listen anyway
You know I tried, you turned away
Straight out lied right to my face
You *** my life, ruined my day
But you don't know, so I'll say
Nothing can fill this silence
No one can love like I did
Nobody cares, you lied
It's no fair, you still deny it
Nothing can fill this silence
No one can love like I did
Nobody cares, you lied
It's no fair, you still deny it
Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't
Wanted to be your man back then
And too bad I know I can't wake up
Because I lost my weight
And you don't give a *** about me
This could be a dream
I can't see the things that you see
So please, oh
Girl, I hope you understand
I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't
Wanted to be your man back then
And you know I'll play along you
In my home I wrote you songs
And now you're dead to me
Effectively removed yourself outside my dream
